How does one fucking float?

She tries too hard

She is been told efforts mean she will be good

So she tries too hard

She is praised for her intentionality

So she mostly overdoes it

She does not do it consciously of course

She’s been raised like this

And this behaviour is reinforced

But it hears when she does

And it reads when she is not kind to herself too.

She cannot just float

Although she would like to

The truth is

She doesn’t really know how to

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Instantaneous

Sometimes they come

The tears

They just burst out

Unexpectedly

Something hits and boom

No restraint

They jump out of my eyes

As if to say

Now, listen, this is now

Take it all in

There is no escape

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Je suis Julie

‘Julie la petite olive rêvait de voyager mais elle était captive d’un rameau d’olivier.’

Je suis la petite olive

Et mes pensées sont mon rameau.

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