Cagey words

What stopped her from doing it

She was not sure

She said success maybe?

What those words meant she wasn’t sure either

This could mean so many different things

But she never really stopped long enough to think what it could look like for her?

She wasn’t sure where she was going but she thought writing might help her find the answer

She wasn’t sure whether she had to look for the response

Or whether it would come to her

The language we use often fails to convey the meaning it carries

As if beyond lacking the right words, we don’t fully grasp what the words we are using really mean

‘Pay attention’ ‘Rest assured’ ‘I love you’

This might contribute to why we tend to define by a sense of opposition

As if unable to be understood except by negation

Finding it easier to point to what you do not want rather than what you do

What does it mean to want to be free?

The closest I ever get to it is:

Not to feel stuck

Still, I can’t help hoping that finding the right language might be one of the keys to setting the bird free.

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Drop and Fly

Believing in your thoughts

Creates your own suffering

Stuck in your own patterns

Without finding a way out

Of your own mind cage

The day I drop my beliefs around worthiness

Is the day I start living freely

My wings itching at the basis of my shoulder blades

Waiting for knots to disentangle

Today, my curly spine is misaligned

Tomorrow, I might fly away free